Oh, I forget to mention that I am no longer feel burnt out and everything has been resumed to normal since the late March, and I have found the reason why I had stressed out.
The first problem is that, I think I have gone too far in using SunVox and focusing every single details in music production, but forgot the original intention why did I make music in the first place. Originally, I used SunVox only for making music, because it is a free and powerful modular tracker, so I could make trance tunes and chiptunes without frustrating my wallet; nevertheless, for some reason, I accidentally discovered some logic gates and flip flops (as my old account), thanks to the feedback modules. I started to enter the rabbit hole of digital circuitry, and I tried to build all kind of computer components with SunVox. From just a simple drum machine, to eventually the 16 bit computer with assembler, and now I am writing the 3xLog (though I have paused a littler); meanwhile, since I have slowly know more about in mixing and mastering, I ended up spending focusing on the very single detail of it, from EQ, panning, loudness, etc. I simply felt tired about those topic, and I stressed out if I didn’t perfectly get the sound; however, I just realised I have missed the whole point why I make music in the first place, which it should be a hobby that makes me feel relieved from my busy and rushing life style in where I lived, which contradicts to my current situation. Thus, now I know it, and I will stop caring perfection on every details on music making, and just make something as long as I have fun with it, as I am just a hobbyists on composing music.
Doing too many stuff all at once is another problem, besides ruining the fun due to achieving every minor details perfectly. Besides SunVox projects, I have other things to do, from my job, planning for migration and learning rust that kind of great and career changing tasks, to something smaller like practicing piano and maintaining this blog. It seemed fine at the first glance, but I was doing all at once!!! I thought Multi-tasking was efficient because I assumed doing multiple things at once could complete multiple things all at once; however, I have fallen into this fallacy since I ended up being distracted by too many tasks when I was attempted to focus on one of them, and I took longer than expected as a result; moreover, having multiple tasks suddenly and doing them altogether made me feel stressful, as I kept thinking on bunch of unfinished tasks which they have been holding for awhile; in consequence, I have lost motivation on doing some of my tasks. Hence, now I decided to rearrange every tasks, and I will only doing one or two of them at a time. Migrations is important, so I have to plan that first, followed by my job, then learning rust, and so on, while I can still occasionally make some music for relaxing. Hopefully, this can make me more focused on a specific task so that I can nail them down quicker with better accuracy.
Here we go, seems I had tried too hard on music production to a point that isn’t really necessary as a hobbyist, and doing too many things at once, so… if you have made into the end of this post, just to remember not to follow my mistake, so you can reduce your stress, hopefully.
Soar beyond the imagination, and see you next time!